It is what it is

August 2013

so this has been a really, really crap few weeks. My ex-boyfriend died, yeah I wouldn't really care if it was my ex-husband but w.e. it is what it is. We had a serious history, we were together for two years, lived together, got puppies together. He was my first serious boyfriend and yes he had a rough side but I think everyone does. We had a lot of communication after the relationship for years. yes the past couple of years we haven't really kept in touch but it just hit me really hard. hell it still is, I cant say it out loud that he is gone with out me thinking he is going to walk in the door and say "oop my bad just wanted to see if you still care!!" I'm still angry though I have so many words running around in my head and not sure how to get them out of my head. His family, ok his sister is pissing me off too. She just is blocking me out like since I was his first serious girlfriend (from 10 years ago) like I don't count since I wasn't the most recent like I never mattered.