First Blog

I think my marriage is over. I don't want it to be don't get me wrong I do love my husband he is my best friend. well he was, not so much anymore and I don't know how to fix it. Part of me isn't sure I want to fix it. That is only because he doesn't seem like he really wants to change us for the better whatsoever. look at our twins and all can think is "why wouldn't you want to change, I do". He was the best thing that ever happened to me, a great friend, someone that was always there, made me laugh, listened to me cry. He was always the one that would be there that I could count on. and now, now is just another jerkoff it seems like and I know he is better than that. Then again I could just be putting him on a pedestal and be all wrong about it all. I'm just really upset and sick of being walked all over by everyone and he was the last person that I ever expected it from.